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lets pray hard i will get the job.
only then ill have the time for myself.
and maybe ill be able to forget about everything.
yess.



pray hard.pray hard.
haha.
but then we'll see if having the job
allows me to drown myself and just start afresh
we'll see.
we'll see how.


right now.
i dont want to try being so nice anymore.
to put it crudely and sounding my most malay
all i want to say is
" ehh dah malas ah nak layan ni semue.
penat ahh . baik p main jauh2 lagi best.
buang mase, saketkan hati.peningkan kepale ahh. suke hati lah eh.buat baik salah.buat jahat tambahkan dose pulak.dah malas."

sorry about that.but it felt good saying all those. yess.





and yesssssss like finally nadiah is back in the scene.
with her hp now being ok.
i have much much more to tell you girl.
alot alot alot more.
because i know you would make me feel alot better.
:'( :'( :'(



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ya know what everyone.
it gets me all sad,
when the people around me
get all down and moody with plain weird behavior.
ya know.
sometimes i think i try too hard to make them talk things out,
sometimes i think im supergirl with superpowers to try so much
to make them feel a lot better.
ya know, ya know, i love everyone alot.alot.
and it pains me to see every single one of them feeling down.
and then, and then sometimes i really really think im trying too much
to make them feel much better.
which made me look like a fool.


ya know, ya know,
haha.
at times, i feel all weird and awkward to come up to them
and ask them how are they doing.
because i dont want to be seen as trying too much or just plain nosey.


ya know wat everyone.
one day, one fine day.
im going to stop talking and listening,
because im getting all exhausted.
i think its time for a change.
it is time,
you guys listen.